satisfaction or engagement?

(read at you own risk, may provoke insanity)

me to myself: eh hello, tolong la buat keja cepat sikit
myself: tapi lapar...
me to myself: dah tu gi lah masak..lepas makan buatla keje
(2 hours later)
myself: uwah...dah kenyang, ngantukla
me to myself: dah tu gi lah tido

pengajaran: wattuf...dua2 pon tak btol...dont take advise from either of them..

Semenjak beberapa abad yg lalu, I realized something. Before that, lemme tell you, the only socialschomcial internet thingy that I joined and sparingly active is Friendster.
This syaitoon called Frienster..what do you think of it?
I think its a good way to stay in touch with dear friends, those near, far, far away, or those you dont really wanna be friends with but oh well what the heck, I'm self-destructive.

The thing I realized is, some people use this medium to advertise themselves. CAnt really blame theme, what other platform do they have. Myspace and so on belong to the same kapal-lah with Friendster. And then, as I was browsing through...SHIT..this Friendster thing is worse than reading a magazine.

The thing is maybe the deep down green with envy me is out of control or mebbe its human nature itself.
U see picture of people travelling e.g. australia, I go, " oh i've never been there, what a loser I am." Then I realized the person in the picture has never been to Europe, let alone travelling to GErmany.
Okla...long story short. I also see profiles saying.."I'm beautiful","I'm so lucky to be here!"," I so smart", " It's so good to be me!"..
It leaves a waft of nausea and it's corny. But at times, I do go, " why am I not like that?" why cant I say, "woohooo...so lucky to be me!"..., why am I not advertising the places I've been (just to be a good sport in the where-have-I-been-to-oh-I-am-so-lucky rivalry)..I wonder..

I'm lucky what..(manglish)
I have a good education, friends that matters (not the social butterfly or keep in touch type aka an excuse for being anti-social..harhar), family that loves me and I love them back. Travelled quite a lot.Not that much money, but enough to get by...so isnt this suppose to make me feel lucky? satisfied? Human nature: we are greedy beings.

mmm...what was my point again? oh, it all comes back to the y'old good islamic teaching. Only God has the answers (expect a tingling sensation and distant chime of enlightenment at this point)
Be satisfied, gracious and moderate with what you have. You might not have it for long so be generous, humble to those not so lucky ones and those in need.

-->(I am in the in-need category, betcha I'll be in Australia or Greece or whatchamaycallit one day you bloody cows...mmm..when I think again Singapore or Thailand pon tak penah pegi)

2. pengajaran: toksah la dok bukak frenster selalu..buang masa, lepas dah buang masa, sakit hati..hahahha...budus...

just to keep an open mind, not confined to travelling topic only, it includes work,education, so on so forth..

me to myself: owh...shuddup!
myself: I concur
u ols: owh God!is she ever going to shuddup?