Muruku

Overall it was a low key birthday. Which i am totally satisfied, since dah tua nih kind of not that fond to be reminded that you're getting old. Takla rasa macam tua pon(elo!!baru 24!!) but still a bit nervous..hahah..because not sure at 24 if my life on track. Feel like i have to do something more important in life like, saving the wildlife, be a UNESCO volunteer or something.Hey, tak aci btol, why do i have to be 24 first?

Went to Frankfurt to sambut raya haji on the 14th. Cant help blurting to some people that the next day is my birthday. Kind of a nervous thing maybe, of reminding myself that I'm the first to get old. Sigh2. Not that keen on travelling again actually, but hate the weather at Regensburg, feel like have to go elsewhere. Ingat nak balik hari but end up, dreading have to wait for the birthday chime alone i guess, so stayed in bingen..had fun actually talking to neyn, neyn's mom, wawa and auni abt nothing much but at the same time quite deep compared to my everyday merapu talk.

My sisters said i dont want to terima hakikat dah tua. It bugs me. Yennadey, of coursela terima atau tidak time goes by. Dont know how is it one can show a ' terima hakikat' statement. Thanks kengkawan yg anta saya hadiah, the bantal (which i really like, teringat bantal busuk saya...harhar), the books from amazon ( ach chenta hati ku), the something unmentionable posted to me from dortmund, money, the good wishes and not forgetting the grand gesture of someone/someone parents of replacing something stolen from me (which count as a bday present and still feel guilty over it) and the promised presents to come.

After more than ten years of being in love with someone, still I dont have the courage to confess it..oh well might as well inform u guys..i'm in love with Gambit!!I want to marry him..but, oh well, guess dia tak sedar pon aku wujud..sob sob..